Are u feeling bad?

A few days ago I was feeling very depressed.I was thinking about all the bad things that have happened to me .I was wondering about why all that happened.I was feeling victimised.I was thinking what bad things i had done to deserve all that.When it became too much,i tried to change my thinking.I started thinking about what i can do to improve the situation and to improve myself as a person.Then i started feeling better and empowered.When u blame others or external things for your sadness,u will always feel bad and weak.The moment u take responsibility for how to lead ur life,u will start feeing stronger and better.

I have now started my dummy project.The lecture sessions are over( thankfully).I will be doing this project for the next 2 months ,after which I'll get a live project.I am enjoying myself a lot these days .There's not much work pressure or time constraints at present.So, I get to talk to my friends at office and we have a lot of fun.I have kind of adapted to the work scene.I dont feel very sleepy anymore.I try to catch up on lost sleep during the weekends.After the initial days at office,now i am beginning to enjoy this office life.I am more comfortable now.

Taking Advice

One day I happened to overhear a conversation when I was returning from office in my office bus.Two persons sitting behind my seat were talking abut how to clear CAT and its various aspects and statistics.One of them said that he had tried to clear CAT but failed.He was talking very negatively about it and he gave the other person a very pessimistic view of the whole thing about clearing CAT.He made it seem like a very difficult examination which involves a lot of luck factor.He didnt say anything about the hardwrk involved or any strategies for the examination.

This reminded me of something i had read a few years ago -- "Take advice about how to succeed in a domain only from successful people in that domain." It is actually true.When u talk to people who have failed,u can learn about what not to do.Generally when u ask them about how to succeed in something,they will give u a negative and demoralised view which can alter ur perspective and make urself negative about the whole thing too.

I got my first salary!!

I got my fisrt salary on 1st july.Its really very special.I feel very good about the whole thing.I have yet to decide on how to spend it.The first thing i did was buy some sweets from that money and went to the temple.I have always been careful about money and have never been a great shopper.However,when u realise that its ur own money that u have made urself,its a very differnt feeling.I feel more responsible.I will buy some gifts for my family and friends..

First weekend after the joining

after the first few days at job, it has become quite boring due to the lectures we have in the training session...they make us sit in classes and we have to tolerate long lectures which r very boring sometimes...its evn worse than what we had in college sometimes...and to top it all,i was not getting enough sleep...it sure was dfficult to keep awake during the lectures...however,the coffee machine was my saving grace... :) ...
i have never waited for a weekend so eagerly...it was the most precious weekend i had..on saturday,i woke up early and then i made the breakfast as my mother was out of station...then i went out to meet my friends..after that i slept mostly..i slept away my sunday...i hope i get used to the long hours at office soon...

My first day at job

I joined Flextronics(Hughes) Software Systems today as a software engineer.I was wondering about what the experience would b like...However,it turned out to b like a regular college day..I went to the office in the morning with some of my friends who were also joining today..We reached there at around 8:10 am..and then we waited outside one of the buildings ( fss has 7 ot 8 buildings) for about half an hour..then we were issued i-cards and we were taken to another location for our induction..there were almost 150 other joinees from all over India with various qualifications...When we were made to sit in the hall there and told to fill the elaborate forms,that reminded me of the day of my admission in NSIT..Then we had some boring lectures about the company,its policies etc etc ..The best part was that the lunch was free and i got to meet a lot of new people there ....we were free at 5:30 pm and i managed to reach home around 7 pm..All in all,it was just like being in college...i think i will get the actual JOB experience only when i finish the training(which is of 12 weeks duration)....

****The best way to pay for a lovely moment is to enjoy it.


****The only thing that shatters dreams is compromise.

About Learning and losing

Thats what learning is ,after all : not whether we lose the game,but how we lose and how we have changed because of it and what we take away from it that we never had before,to apply to other games.Losing,in a curious way, is winning.

I am joining Tomorrow!!

So my days as a software enginner starts tomorrow...in my company : Flextronics Software systems(formerly Hughes)..i will b working for 9 hours + commuting for 2 hours + sleeping for 8 hours.This leaves 5 hours for leisure..I am looking forward to some challenging work.

Why?

Why would u feel lousy,if u can feel good?


Why would u want to do less,if u can do more?


Why would u not want to smile,when u can and a smile looks good ?


Why would u feel worthless ,when u know that u r good?


Why would u b discouraged by small setbacks,when u know u can overcome any obstacle if u want to?


Why would u compare urself with others,when u know that its unfair?

how to kick a bad habit

This is an excerpt from a book i m reading : "The Naked Leader" by David Taylor.


" If u want to give up a bad habit ,but u do not,it is usually because that habit gives u some pleasure.Identify what that pleasure is - be honest with urself,then ask urself how u could achieve this same pleasure doing something different.If so, u will b on the way,because u will not b 'giving up' the pleasure,u will b replacing it.If smoking gives u the pleasure of relaxing,and u find that meditation also gives u the same pleasure - meditate.(You can meditate in more places than u are allowed to smoke!)"

who is a strong person?

The other day i was talking to my friend about who is an emotionally strong person...the one who shows his emotons or the one who hides them...and he said a strong person is one who can show the emotions that must b shown and can manage his emotions well...i always observed that ppl frowned upon crying as a sign of weakness..but it helps sometimes to let ur emotions out and not keep them bottled up inside u..

some quotations...

Aristotle said " To be angry is easy.But to be angry with the right person ,for the right reason,to the right degree,at the right time....this is difficult..."

Oscar Wilde said : "Self love is the starting of a life-long romance."

i made this ...

Cow-girl

i made this too...

Kiss of a Flower

LOVE’S PAIN

Once I was a poet

I used to write night after night

How I loved every written word

How I believed in them with all my might.

What could I possibly write about

I thought I knew it all too well

So, I wrote on and on about only one thing -

Falling in love and its spell.

I wrote about falling in love

And all the happiness it would bring

Mine was a heart of a romantic

I believed in love’s beauty and its eternal spring.

Oh, how many lines I wrote on love

I was happy and youth was mine

I could think of only the joy of loving

So drunken I was on love’s wine.

But why do I laugh at those lines today

What has changed inside of me

Is it only a matter of few years

That once I was a poet that now I can never be.

I wonder what you’d say if you read those poems

But I can see I was wrong

When I wrote only about love’s joy

And for it forever I did long.

But now I know I saw love

Only in one dimension

Still I know very little about it

Yet this precious little I would care to mention.

If ever you fall in love

Be ready to face its pain and sorrow

Along with the ecstasy it brings

To you every moment today and tomorrow.

As a rose with its beauty

Has its share of thorns

Look at love in its entirety

Love can be dark as night and bright as morn.

Be blessed when you have pleasure

That love brings sometimes

Yet be ready for the pain

That it’ll bring all the other times.

And don’t shy away from love’s pain

Don’t ever say it’s what you despise

You have to make efforts and work hard to keep love

It’ll only make you grow and make you wise.

So, pain it is and pleasure it is

And if all this pain you can endure

I can say you know the meaning of love

I’ll believe your love is pure.

--- Self composed by Neha Giri

Dated 7.04.05
Copyright 2005

movies galore...

am getting bored to death at home ...i watched three more movies.."The wedding planner"(Jlo can act too!!)..."Shrek 2"(A delightful movie with great graphics) and "Forrest Gump" (An interesting movie )

A Beautiful Movie

I watched the movie "A Beautiful Mind" today...it was an extraorinary movie...though the first half was quite boring..it got better and better as the movie progressed..it really touched my heart..i wd recommend this movie to everyone..

1024 pages...

at one time i cud barely stand reading novels and fiction..i thought they were a waste of time...so,i only preferred reading non-fiction ..but i surprised myself recently by completing the book "Gone With the Wind " by Margaret Mitchell...it was really nice and i read all the 1024 pages of it :) and relished every one of it...the central character was really nicely etched out...i really enjoyed the book and i think i will start reading fiction now...they r a welcome break from the monotony and realities of modern life..i completed another one recently: "Toxin" by Robin Cook..i wd recommend this book to lovers of medical mystery and thrillers...i m hooked..

those were the days...

I am going to miss my college days ...had a lot of fun all these 4 years...had such good friends and had such a good time with them..and got to learn so much frm them..all stuck together thru thick and thin..making it one big happy family :) ...and am gng to miss my beautiful college campus,especially the canteen lawns where v sat 4 hours in the last semester,sharing the 'delicacies' from the canteen..awwwww