My new pursuit

Self realization and pursuit of nirvana is an endless journey. I embark on this journey and I hope to achieve some peace. I am increasingly curious about attachment to results and materialistic things.

I firmly believe that without reading books/ writing down such meandering thoughts, we get lost in them. I love books and they are the best companions on the path to knowing the world and ultimately your true self.

Knowing oneself in terms of the weaknesses and strengths and the tendencies is the first step towards enlightenment. Accepting the weaknesses is the first step towards improvement.

Secret to a calmer self

To be able to write is a gift.Its an outlet. Its an expression which I barely use now..except scribbling something onto the office notebook.

When I write down something, it becomes clear in my mind. The sentences reflect fact. I become more aware of it.

Lately I have undergone some realization. To observe oneself is one of the ways to know one's deepest tendencies..May be we all do the things we do without thinking and its mostly our tendencies that unravels in form of actions...

We can question ourselves if we become aware of these tendencies..These tendencies are formed because of our past experiences and the thoughts in our subconscious minds...

We are what we think ...And our thoughts may also follow a pattern..mostly these patters are formed thoughout our past life due to repeated actions and similar experiences..These patterns may become so ingrained in our minds, that we may not realise them..We may stop thinking differently..We may even stop that a separate way can exist...Our thoughts becomes limited, so does our action and scope..

I have often read that to be able to forget is one of the best abilities we have..otherwise we may become crazy..Its true as we need constantly forget about things that worry us or worried us in the past..otherwise we may not forget unpleasant incidents and torture ourselves needlessly..

To be completely aware of the present moment may feel like nirvana..When you care nothing about the moments before and after the present moment and your whole mind is occupied and immersed in the moment you have now, the mind neither fears the future nor it repents the past,,,The mind feels fully awakened to the one truth that exists in the present moment..

To see the beauty of the current moment and to completely devote yourself to do the best possible with this moment, gives you happiness and a sense of achievement..Time goes on and it makes us realize that our unhappiness is nothing but our own thoughts..When the thoughts are cleansed of fear and unpleasantness, you feel peace..

To be positive and see every new second as a new possibility to do something good to make your world better is a wonderful thing. Anything is possible. You are not limited by your tendencies..Try out new things and think new thoughts..Every moment is a completely new dimension..Realize all your wishes..

"Wanted" movie review

Being an Angelina Jolie fan, I could not miss this new flick "Wanted". And I wasn't disappointed. Its a tale about how an ordinary office guy gets transformed into a self assured shooter and gets to know what he is here for. The movie is unusual in its plot and flow. Its an effortless watch and the scenes flow from one to another like poetry. I loved the action scenes and they were quite hair raising ones. After Matrix, this was the action movie that had some truly original action sequences which were intriguing at the same time. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I liked the scene particularly where the hero finally speaks up and thrashes his boss and his dishonest colleague. Though in some parts, the movie gets unreal, I am happy as long as the story is interesting. Though the movie belongs to the hero James Mc Avoy, Jolie still makes a mark with her hot shot image and smooth moves.

New Mozilla Firefox Browser 3.0.1

I like the new Mozilla browser...Especially it lets me save the pages when I close down the browser and opens them when I launch the browser again. However, the toolbar icons look disproportionate.The pages can be bookmarked easily by clicking on the small star on the address bar(Google style). There is a toolbar button for most visited sites which is quite convenient. The auto complete in the address bar also looks pretty nice..The History feature is also improved and opens as a separate window too. Overall I like this new version though they can improve on the graphic look and feel.Go for it!

I want my green tea

I have started keeping green tea bags in office now. I got to know that green tea has many benefits. It has more antioxidants than normal tea and also is not heavy on the system.Regular tea with milk is not very healthy as milk neutralizes the antioxidants. Also it is hard on the stomach.It dehydrates the body(a diuretic). Green tea on the other hand doesnt work as diuretic.Green tea also increases metabolic rate.So it makes a light refreshing drink and keeps me awake in office :-)

My latest fad

One of the perils of being a software engineer( or having any sedentary job) is the nasty weight that creeps in slowly over the years before you realize you are way too chubbier and have no option left but to do something about it or curse yourself everyday...So here I am going through this and remembering how svelte I was in college...a nimble deer..I have ended up joining a gym two months ago and its already paying off.Though the first month was a struggle and I ended up gaining weight at the end of it, the second month went well..I barely have lost weight but only shaped up..I think thats because of the muscle mass gained which is actually heavier than fat.
I have become almost obsessed with fitness.I think most people already are..Every day I see some fitness article in the papers and every month I get some magazines which revolve around fitness.There are 2 ways to look at it.Fitness is both about vanity and health.Obviously you look good when you are fit.Interestingly,when I look at old family pictures,people look younger and silmmer. The trend almost invariably goes towards the fatter end as people age.At the same time fitness is also about health and power.Fitter people not only look better they also live longer.Now that's a thing hard to ignore.The reason I had to join gym was this.I could not ignore this truth.As I am getting older I am also more aware of my health and how I should live my life so as to get lesser trouble in old age.After a regular day of work I mostly find it difficult to go to the gym and sweat it out when I can spend the time sleeping to tackle my sleep deprivation.But when I step out of the gym, I feel more powerful, more energetic ,more alert and better in every way.Sometimes I wish I was a gym trainer.. :-)

I found my way..

I had been wondering a lot about whats the purpose of my life...what I am doing here and I find some clue today in a song - "Kholo Kholo" from Taare Zameen Par -

Dil Khush Jahan....Teri to manzil hai wahi........

The Graduation Day

Just a few days back one of my frens mentioned that now that I m relatively free….i cud update my blog…and now here I m….I had one of the most fantastic day today…I had my convocation today after 2 years of passing out of NSIT as a computer engineer..I was looking forward to meeting some old frens and exchanging notes about our new lives after college days…I had decided to take mom along as I wanted her to see me getting the degree up there on the stage after working so hard beside me when I toiled for the entrance exams and later the sem exams and placement days….It surely had some emotional value for her..I reached college at 9.30 am in the morning after being scolded by frens to always arrive fashionably late at every get-together….I had no idea what was in store for me to witness there…I was amused to see all my frens busy getting their black robes and hats on….Soon enough I donned my robe too with the yellow scarf and hat….and now everyone was looking just the same with beaming faces and black robes…I was happy to catch up on some of the “long time no see” frens…And felt like being in college again with nostalgia in full gear…We were seated in the auditorium in the order in which the degrees were to be conferred...Then the chief guests and director came in the audi with some vedic shlokas playing the background..They all wore bright

red robes…Then began the customary welcome address and all…The gold medals for the stream toppers and best projects were awarded thereafter…and then came the big moment of conferring degrees to the students…One by one all of us went to the stage to collect our degree and get the photo clicked….Soon we came down from the audi and got more pics clicked…Everyone treasured the euphoric moment of tossing their black hats high up in the air and getting clicked while doing this…Later on as I sat on the college lawns with my frens I realized how truly special the college days were…We reminisced the golden times of college, the fun we used to have and caught up on our current occupations…Last few days had been eventful for me…I just switched my job and now am working in NMS domain in a product company …I have always believed that “Change is good” coz it makes u grow and now I am adapting to the changes… [:)]

Happy 2007!

A golden new year has arrived,
and anything is possible.
It can be a time of success,
a time of achievement,
a time of happiness
a time when dreams come true.
What the year becomes
is up to you.
All you have to do,
is steer your ship
toward your goal,
and hold true to
what's in your heart
even come the stormy weather.
And should worry and self-doubt
rattle your sails and darken the day
simply let a gentle wind
carry your troubles away.
Above all, no matter where
the year leads you,
no matter what you do,
never stop believing you can succeed,
never stop believing in you.


as the new year dawns...
may it open up for you more opportunities,
lead you onto the path of continued success,happiness & prosperity..
Happy new year to you & your family..

What would u do if u just escaped death?

Would it change your perspective?

Sleep Walking

I close my eyes
and hope to dream
As I try to sleep
I start awakening.


When the outer world quitens
and dark darkness descends
I marvel at how
my inner world speaks.


Closed eyes open
to the eternal truth
Realizations dawn on
my wandering soul.


I answer my questions
My guardian angel smiles
She knows she knew the truth
and I set forth the right way


I find peace at the corner of my heart
I never bothered to look there
But now I know
it was always there.


And as I rest in peace
there is a curve on my face
there is some light and some lightness
in my heart and mind.


I can sleep now
I feel the hand of God on my forehead
I feel safe as divinity looks over me
And I begin to dream.

-Composed by me on 28.08.06

Is ur cubicle bigger than mine?

I recently changed my cubicle in my office to get a better seat and
then as I was browsing on my new seat, I came across this comic
strip which had me grinning from ear to ear.

New FM channel on d block!

Tune in to FM 95.00 MHz..Amazing hindi + English songs played alternately and no
Ads!!!!!!

A Trip to Dharamshala

I went on a trip to Dharamshala recently- 7 to 10 th July.It ahd been a very long time since I set my foot outside Delhi..So I was quite excited about it..We were 10 people in all..office colleagues and college friends..

Dharamshala is a place in Himachal Pradesh.It takes almost 12 hours to reach there by bus from Delhi. This place is quite popular for the monasteries.Dharamshala stands at the foot of Dhauladhar and has a magnificent view of snowy peaks, deodar and pine forests, tea gardens and beautiful hills.Dharamshala now really has become international, with a number of Tibetan settlements and the residence of Noble Laureate the 'Dalai Lama'. Dharamshala is devided into two distinct parts : lower Dharamshala the civil and business area with Courts and Kotwali bazar and upper Dharamshala composed of places like Mcleod Ganj and Forsyth Ganj. Mcleodganj has emerged as a major Buddhist centre.

We hardly stopped at Dharamshala.Our main destination was Bhagsunag waterfall and McLeodGanj.Though we had very less time we managed to see the waterfall at Bhagsunag,St. John's church,a monastery and Dal lake.


I was almost in a trance for two days on the trip.The place was full of religion seeking foreigners and monks..It had exotic shops too with exhorbitantly priced items..I was fascinated by the monastery and the Budhdhist way..The monks had such a serene expression on their faces..Looked like they didnt have a worry in this world..I wondered whether I should join them :-) And wondered who all of them have sold their Ferrari... hehe..

On a serious note,it was a very nice experience.. I later felt that I should have spent more days there ..

Dal Lake

St. John's Church

Lord Budhdha at the monastery

I made these!